Hanging up my gloves.

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It appears that I am to hang up my gloves for a season of my life. Arguably nearly three seasons for the garden, all told. I haven’t quite come to terms with this. I’m not sure if I will, but I’ll do it none the less.

Growing a family is hard work, and sometimes we need more rest for a season than we would like in order to do so.

I can toss out carrot seeds gently, though, I imagine. Ah, but look, March’s unsprouted seeds are showing up after our hurricane rains…

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I can admire the garlic greens from a chair.

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I will sow and nurture tomato and pepper seedlings at the New Year, plugs prepared by others’ hands, so that I may yet enjoy this view again next year.

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But turning the earth must wait. Hauling the manure and hefting the nicked leaves aren’t for me this year. Smells of the last of the tomato vines as they’re pulled for the bin will waft into someone else’s nose.

Unearthing the treasure (hopefully) buried beneath this beast will be left to others’ devices.

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I already miss the mowing. The nausea and the heat haven’t allowed me to mow in months. But maybe I can still pull weeds? And the wheelbarrow handles just fit so well in my hands…but DH will bend low to grab them for me.

I don’t sit still well. I never have. My back aches faster and deeper from stillness than activity. Life brings challenges anew. I am used to the physical challenges of exertion. I’ve enjoyed a sub-less soccer match in 26° and 106°. A half a mile of lunges? Sure, I’ve done that. 20 hour work days? Let me at it. But to find stillness for months? That’s daunting to a degree I’ve yet to feel on the active end of the spectrum.

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As with labor though, I’m given the reminder that at the end, there’s a baby. A whole person with a life to lead. New eyes to see the world. New thoughts to join the cacophony of humanity. A new heart ready to be filled by love. At the end, it will all be worth it.

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8 comments on “Hanging up my gloves.

  1. Congratulations! A lovely post to welcome a new gardener to your family, that’s how I think of it 🙂

    • plumdirt says:

      Thank you. That’s how I’m trying to think of it, too. Kids teach us so much, and this one seems to just be teaching me (from a very early age) to slow down.

  2. Shannon says:

    Another baby! Great news. Congratulations to you!! Don’t worry. The garden will still be there when you’re ready to have at it. By that time, you may need to HACK at it. That’s how mine gets when I ignore for several weeks/months, which I’m also doing more and more. ‘Fits and starts’ is the best description of my gardening efforts these days.

    My wishes for a quick and effortless delivery. 😀

  3. Karen says:

    Oh congratulations! That new little baby will be so worth the wait.

  4. You are growing something far more spectacular and amazing than veggies! That is a super power to celebrate, there will be many, many seasons in the dirt for you to come.

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